what does happiness look like

i scroll through rows and rows of photos of couples laughing with each other, selfies, people looking happy with food, or snapshots with 'underprivileged' kids

i don't know what happiness looks like

i don't think happiness is captured on camera. not often anyway

happiness to me looks like 

     walking home from the studio after finishing a piece

happiness to me looks like 

     holding ezra up and making him laugh

happiness to me looks like

     sitting with two girls i have come to love so much in an ice-cream shop while it pours outside

happiness to me looks like

     tuesday nights listening to the genuine sharing of life and struggles and talking through them

happiness to me looks like

     slicing up ingredients and cooking a good bowl of noodles

happiness to me looks like 

     the moments we are present: present with each other; present with ourselves

we don't do that very much anymore

i am not very happy with life right now