it's been a year since I've written on this space. I think I'm very conscious of what I write / who's reading this / constantly anticipating how I'm being perceived by others. I've always been very self-conscious - what's changed is what I choose to do with that though. Nowadays it's been more uncaring, perhaps that's not the right word, aware but choosing to behave as though I weren't hoping one day I'd not be so concerned what people think of me.

School has been pretty confusing and mentally draining. There's constant processing on what it means to be an educator, but it's kinda all up in the brain with no avenues for application. I do love all this thinking but I'm wondering where it'd all go. I do want to believe that all the thinking I've been doing would have some sort of innate subconscious impact on me, but I can't say for sure.

New environments are always hard to navigate, but I think I've found a version of self that I'm comfortable with at least for the moment.

I've been obsessed with Alexa Chung. I can't put a finger on why. Several reasons would be that I love the British accent and it's just kinda soothing to hear her speak, she's so quirky and lanky and awkward yet proud of it - it's refreshing, also she's just really gorgeous.