august sentiments

I walked up the stairs and saw winnie outside the library. I got really excited and shouted 'winnie chew!!!' it was really good to see her. she said the rest of the music people were having a meeting inside, but they couldn't eat inside so they were all coming out. i saw sandra walking out and shouted her name too. Her reaction was priceless!!! hehe she gave me a hug. me and Winnie laughed. (hello sandra i know you're secretly reading this) and then houw ping and agnes were also there :) houw ping was really smiley and sweet as usual and agnes was agnes HAHA. and it was so good to see them. To be greeted so excitedly by ex-colleagues made me feel very warm and fuzzy inside. 

i've come to love the teaching fraternity. no organization is perfect, but the kind of heart so many of these individuals have, the way they love and care, and their excitement to learn, makes me want to be a better educator, and also a better learner too. 

I get nervous, about the immediate present - how to be ready to just pack up and leave again, familiarity, friends, solid ground; but being reminded and casting my eyes upward to the Lord, knowing that He has called me to teach, and looking forward and ahead to that, is comforting. i know He will carry me through, and the journey ahead will continue to be a wonderful one, with weird surprised and unexpected turns (God can be very funny sometimes) and hopefully many many people to hang out with and do life with, the constancy of His presence and His love will sustain me. 

something that I have been reminded of lately is, not to be afraid to ask for help, to seek support, to share and be accountable to those who love me. it's easy to not want to be a bother, or to want to solve everything by myself. yes, some parts of life you may walk alone, or you may need time away from people. but others, to let those who love you walk with you, allow them to call you out on your crap, edna-mode you when you need a bit of a waking up, but to always give you a hug afterwards, assuring you that things may not be easy, but they will be okay; to lend you their shoulders to lean on, their hands to hold, to cry with you, to laugh with you. and also, you with them. 

this is definitely me being sentimental, and i do struggle with not wanting to appear 'weak' or to need help from others, but the times when I've chosen to let friends in, I am ever so thankful and have been incredibly blessed (sarry i appreciate you a lot). 

here's to a good last 24 days in sg. wishing each of you a wonderful week ahead.