It hit me today - perhaps, awkwardness is what makes real life, well, real life afterall. Those missed high fives, awkward hugs, silences that are broken by weather talk while both parties wreck their brains thinking of another topic to talk about, the brushing of hands, oops sorry I didn't mean to - no you're fine, attempting to press the lift button together (i insist on calling it a lift and not an elevator sorry new friends)... i've come to realise that these are what make us human - that nothing goes perfectly well or go as we expect them to. 

and maybe that's okay. maybe that's good.

i'm really glad i went to family group today. immensely thankful for kristina, claire and rachel. and all the other iv people too.