banal

i've been feeling the need to write about everything - i think writing helps me to document, and also to process my thoughts. shared a moment with my drawing teacher today - maybe it isnt shared lol but to me, it was a moment that was hm. maybe significant in some sense. there are some moments like that that are banal or maybe everyday, but i know have some sort of weight. even if i dont know how to explain it. i ta-ed with this other teacher, and the both of them know each other. and i wanted to ask her about it today, but didn't know whether it was weird to. i get anxiety a lot in situations like that i don't really know why. there are some people, that it just comes naturally, and they just say whatever comes to their minds - i do that with my really close friends - but i speak very considered and filtered thoughts with people i'm still getting to know/not extremely familiar with. i took so long, to just muster the ability to ask her, 

"hey are you and her friends?" 

and the moment i uttered it, i knew she knew that i was waiting to ask the question for a while. she like smiled, and said 

"are you her ta?" 

i laughed. and she was like 

"how do i know this?'

and im like

"she.. texted you?" 

"immediately" /-