about learning.

just got out of a philosophy of art class. and we had to talk. really had to talk. it was wonderful. i think with the education system we grew up in, a lot of things have been spoonfed to us, you always have to have the 'right' answers, to not embarrass yourself, speak if only you are sure. but that's not the purpose of a class. you take class, you go to school because you don't know. if you do know, why waste a bunch of money when you can maybe save up to bto??? ha. but that kind of freedom to question, the freedom to wonder, the freedom to think. to ask questions, knowing that when an instructor probes, or throws the question back at you, it's not him criticising you as a human, but trying to get you to think further, to think harder, for you to understand yourself and uncover and discover and realise and have your own "ah hah" moment. i think we are, okay let me not speak for others, but i am so incredibly afraid of being wrong or embarrassed, at times, it hinders me from trying to make sense of things, wanting just the right answers. i remember feeling so incredibly victimised last semester, when i was questioned on the spot. looking back now, it shouldnt have caused me so much anxiety and fear. im really so excited, so excited to learn. that's what education is supposed to be about ya? oh my thank you Lord Jesus i know how to write my teaching statement for my art ed application now.