disconnected. i think is what encapsulates what i feel now.
from myself and my friends and home.
i visited a church, one that isn't the one i normally go to. and the pastor was talking about home
and he expanded on the concept of home
what it is
how it is elusive
i haven't talked to
the friends i've grown up with
and was the closest to in a long time
i missed calling a friend three times
because it slipped my mind
i didn't intend for it to
it happened
is it busyness
or being spacey
or the aftereffects of a really great roadtrip
i don't know
i'm going to remember to call her tomorrow

there's always the thought that
even if i don't get in contact or keep in touch
when we actually get together it'll be fine
and maybe it will
but it's different
from being in the same physical place
and seeing each other every couple of weeks or even days
perhaps we're all just
busy
with the lives we now lead
apart from each other
and it's not that
we have forgotten each other
it's just how it is
i think?
for now anyway. i don't
know

i don't really know where i'm going with this
i just had thoughts