tingyan.: 23 oct

it's been a pretty good semester so far i want to say, work is challenging enough to make me very uncomfortable, and awfully exhausted from struggling with new processes. i was stressed out about loading and unloading a kiln for a whole week even though i knew every step and it's really hard to mess it up honestly. i mean besides burning your face off. but i don't think that happens much. and reprinting 15 prints because i messed up the registration because i cant deal with precision. but it all worked out fine i am proud of my prints. sorry i was saying, make me very uncomfortable, but in a completely good way in that i feel like being pushed and challenged and it's great.

there are days that get difficult, and there are many more days of missing home, and familiarity and knowing how to function as a human being in a familiar environment, and not having to think about how to say certain things in a different way such that people will understand me better, and the jokes i make (when i even make them) come out right or at least mildly funny, or just not fall flat (which they do sometimes. ask tri and jo and specifically during cards against humanity but thats with singaporeans. lets just say i have a unique sense of humor to put it nicely). but those days are usually peppered with things that pick it up. i'm going to make a list of today's:

i unloaded the kiln successfully

i took a really nice nap in sharp

hope made a sculpture with orange peels and oranges

courtney throwing oranges into jo's bag

i cooked myself a really nice meal - baby bok choy, mushroom soup and curry/tom yam fried rice

an hour nap that i didn't intend to take (yes i'm aware this is the second nap)

skyping my parents and dad being so triumphant about packing my room and needing constant validation of his achievement/ mum asking me all the questions she does and being so animated about everything she's saying

farnaz walking into the room halfway while i was calling my parents and going on a spiel that she didnt intend my parents to hear

red velvet cake tricia bought for me last night

red velvet cup cake farnaz baked

hope showing us her buys from village discount

seaweed/ i ate like 5 sheets today. i like the ones that dont have salt, the ones they make sushi with

calling shelby and catching up even if it was just for 10 minutes

evelyn saying she'll whatsapp me sunshine

everybody's fighting their own battles, and i think it's good to be conscious of that/ i need to be conscious of that.