closure

It's odd.. How some people hit you harder than you ever had expected them too. And it takes a while to reel back in realization, then spring back and recover. The reeling back is pretty quick, realization comes as a slap in the face, but the springing back isn't so much of a spring, as s long drawn process of taking a step forward, then two steps back - until you learn that you have to take a bigger first step than the sum of the two backward steps. Until you finally learn, that what lies ahead is better. And it is. It will be. 

And indeed it has been. There's a letting go involved. Simply the act of releasing my grip on whatever I have my grip on and just letting The Lord come in and take over. And when I truly let go, a certain heaviness is lifted, and I simply rest in the fact that He loves me infinitely more than I can ever imagine. Everything becomes easier. Not that there aren't challenges, there are - every single day, but His presence and His peace walks through with me, the assurance that He has gone ahead of me, the sovereignty and protection of His hand over my life. 

Matthew 11:29-30

29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Indeed His yoke is easy and His burden is light. 

Closure is always good. 

"Despite all that has happened, despite not being as close as we ought to be, I still and always will care for you deeply. Work hard and never lose God or yourself."