started work today. i always get so incredibly nervous before new things start/change happens. i couldnt do anything yesterday, i just curled up in a ball and slept and also watched elementary. today went okay though. it was nice to have my brain functioning again, asking questions, reading, processing material.
i met amanda for dinner, and it was really nice catching up over tacos, and dessert. we talked about old friends, caught up with the things we were doing now, and shared with each other struggles we faced. the constancy of the faithfulness of God came through in our conversations so much, even through struggles, and uncertainty, the consistency was the way He provided, the way He moved through and around us. it doesn't mean we are perfect, nor that we deserve His love or favour, but that's the gift of His grace, and the constancy of His character. not to be taken for granted, most of the time so truly undeserved.
on the way home, i bumped into meiling, who happens to be studying in aussie with my cousin this whole past semester, and i didn't know till about a week ago when i saw her in his photos. and it's crazy how life brings us apart, then somehow back together. we've lived near each other for the longest time, but i hardly bump into her. we literally stood by the roadside and caught up for the next 15 minutes. i'm really glad she's doing well and sounds happy. there was something really heartwarming about the whole thing.
i walked home with a smile on my face, the nerves from last night all gone, replaced by gratefulness, and gladness. i looked up, the stars glowed gently in the night sky, the way they always do.
