october updates

i'm in painting class now. but i completely do not feel like painting at the moment. it's been a while since i've written anything. it's been a crazy time here honestly. work is insane, and everything else as well. not everything is good but more things are good than are not. which is great and amazing. and i'm really thankful. i've enjoyed being immensely busy though. being busy and having to plan and stick to my plan. and when i actually do stick to it it feels really good. but if i don't i try not to stress about it too and like find ways to fix it. things kinda work out in the end. or if not, you just learn to deal with it i guess. and it's all good :)

seeing and catching up with santi was so so nice (':

 sunday jap lunches after church

tricia 

roommates are family

experienced a lot of new things this month would be an understatement. learning a lot of things about myself, the people around me, my environment, and the world in general i feel. i'm sorry im being so general and vague about this but my mind is kinda being a potato and being slumped in a corner of my skull but that's kinda it in a sum-up.

the weekend found me in boston for singsem, but i got time to walk around and explore the place on my own. and i realised the difference between being lonely and alone. there are times that there was a sense of acute loneliness and wishing that family or friends were with me. but other times, i just truly enjoyed being alone. and did not even realise that i was alone. walking through the north end, quincy market, the public garden.. was amazing. truly amazing. i realised how much i enjoy nature, though it's still in the city, the greens and the blues of the public gardens just brought me great peace. being around singaporeans was really nice too. it was funny, when i walked out of the hotel, i was like "oh right im in america" haha. it was a pretty good weekend. if you're ever in boston, go check out james hook and co. lobster rolls. and boston clam chowder at quincy market i really enjoyed. the public garden too. i think that was one of my favourite places.

rainy night in boston

 rainy night in boston

 rainy night in boston

flour bakery

boston public garden 

boston public garden

streets of boston 

quincy market

boston harbour

james hook and co. lobster roll, bisque, fresh raw osyters

so nice of the committee to bring these over (':

and to see singaporeans was great :) johann enjoyed himself more than his face shows it

the neighbourhood i stayed in

till next time (':

been really enjoying working, i feel like i'm putting in a lot of effort into my stuff, i feel good about them. not technically, but conceptually i feel like i'm being inspired and have enough to draw from.

collage prep work for painting

it's the next day now. i couldn't finish writing in class haha. i'm having the spaghetti i set up for a still life for breakfast, and two ramen eggs that turned out pretty good hehe tricia are you proud of me, and drinking earl grey milk tea which is awesome except i think i put too much sugar. i've been consuming too much sugar and salt. i'm going to return in december in a ball, preparin' to get the ball rollin' for food hunts in sg. :p

i was thinking of imagination as i was getting ready my breakfast just now. just how incredibly wonderful it is to be able to imagine. for sure, it's not as good as actually doing whatever you want to do, but the ability to imagine possibilities and feel as though you are living out those possibilities is something amazing. like some things you just may not get to do in your lifetime, but you're still able to imagine it happening. i don't really know how to put into words, but ("geronimo" just played on my spotify ads and i'm missing en right now hehe hi en if you're reading) yeah. my spiel.

drew from 11pm-3am last night and 11am-3pm today too. adding to the two hours in class, total of 10 hours now. i think i've got another couple of hours before this piece is done. drawing has been nice. it's what i feel most comfortable doing still i think (and i can watch movies while i do it hehehe. watched begin again today i love it and keira knightley is wow).

this post was kinda all over the place, but i'm kinda all over the place now, catching up on work and preparing work before next weekend, but i hope you enjoyed reading it anyway :) have a good sunday and a good week ahead everyone!

i'm starting to enjoy painting again

coffee's keeping me awake. i shouldn't be drinking so much coffee. i'm not drinking that much. but more than i do at home. i have a lot of thoughts lately, and i think it's good to write it down. i used to write (by write, i actually mean type cos my handwriting is horrible and i don't think i'll be able to read it in a couple of years. but yeah i should write too cos writing is authentic and it's nice to read handwritten things. but most of the time i type) a lot more than i do now. i used to pen down my thoughts more. putting thoughts into coherent sentences is really therapeutic somehow. 

i was talking to tricia today about there being some people you just feel comforted to see. i'm not talking about friends or family, cos that is like taken for granted i suppose that if you're close to someone it's always nice to see them. but i'm talking about strangers, or acquaintances that bring some sort of warmth to your heart, and a comfort that is unexplainable. somehow seeing them makes the unfamiliarity around me less daunting, a bit more manageable. there are two people here that are just that for me - courtney and sam. courtney runs intervarsity at saic (with a couple of others) and sam's my painting teacher. they both exude this warmth for people and passion for what they do/what they believe in. 

it's 3am here and i've been painting for 6 hours i think. i really enjoy making art. and i'm really thankful to be here. there are few things that take precedence over sleep.

also, i cut bangs on impulse two days ago. and for once i don't regret it. i quite like it/them (is bangs singular or plural i dont even know) actually. :)