This is what makes us human i suppose - our flaws, faults, the little things that get to us, that we are fallible, breakable, destructible. i make it sound bleak, but i think it's comforting, that we're not superhuman. and it's the weaknesses, that make us all the more real, and... human.
met nic for dinner and we were talking about how it's frustrating that people leave marks in your life, that you cant get rid off, no matter how much you want to. i'd just be going about my day, doing my stuff, and i'll suddenly find myself in a familiar situation as i was with xx and memories come back. and i don't think it's bad or good per se. but it's just the indelible mark that people leave on your life. and you can't extricate yourself from having known xx or xy, cos they were at some point in your life, and made a difference, and you wouldn't be the same without them.
thinking about people and friends and how all these things work lately. i've been really busy at work, and with lovemg and with idk things in general, that i haven't really had time with people. i've been enjoying doing things on my own though, and it's been good and everything. but relationships, and people and still the most important i figure, and a good conversation or a nice hug makes up for a whole bad day. and i say this a lot, but it just reminds me how life is a shared experience, and we all need friends. and we all need more time. but the time we have is all we've got, and it's just choosing what you want to do with that time i suppose. and the thought occurred to me as well, i mean we always take for granted that we will have say 80 years of life, and that is a pretty long time. but we never know, when our time will run out. was watching the video of zach sobiech. and how he spent his last days, and how his family misses him. and i was also scrolling through facebook that day, and came across my junior's page. she passed away from cancer a while back, and i wasnt close to her or anything, we were barely acquaintances, but it's just things like these that remind me that life isnt going to last forever, and death is real and all these heavy things like that.
i don't think we should be scared by it? but it''s just good to know the reality of things, cos it puts life into perspective, and helps us to choose what to spend our time doing.
on a lighter note, hanging out with the lovemg comm on friday was one of the most amazing times i've had in a while. skating with deb and chlo was rly fun, and just hanging out together as an entire comm finally, after all the planning was rejuvenating, and brought back memories of how good mg was and how blessed i am. and never to take all these things for granted.
lovemg's tomorrow! refreshments start at 6, event starts at 7. see you there (my imaginary audience)! :)
